Blue screen. White font. Big letters, right there in the middle of the blue. Impossible to miss.

“67 percent complete”
“updating in progress”
“do not turn off your computer”

Like I’d dare, right?

So I wait, and I don’t turn off my computer. Because I have no choice.

Sometimes you just have no choice but to wait for progress to progress. Wait for whatever it is in your life that’s updating itself to go and get itself sorted out and figured out and finished up.

And you hope it’s all successful and that life doesn’t crash. But we all know that’s not always the case.

So.

I’m pretty sure I need a new computer.

I say this because a) very often I get a message on the top of the screen that says “program X is not responding” (program X being whatever program I am trying to open at the moment);  and b) my very intentional (and extra hard) clicking on the program’s icon has absolutely no effect on this; and c) my computer is I-don’t-know-how-many years old. Which in computer years is roughly a hundred million.

Only the thing is, I don’t want to get a new computer. I love my laptop. It’s been with me for I-don’t-know-how-many-years. It would feel bad if I just replaced it.

Wouldn’t anyone?“New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.” (~Lao Tzu)

And anyway, when the other computer crashed last summer – the one with the tower and the separate monitor and keyboard (remember those?) – I went through major withdrawal. Because I was used to it.

I very much like things that I am used to. Because, well…comfort.

We all just want comfort, really. For things to be solid and stable and for life to be firm and no one likes the rug pulled out from under them, even though we know that sometimes it will be.

“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.” (~C.S. Lewis)

Change can be hard. And not just the hard job of moving your computer life over to a new drive.

Sometimes it’s your heart that needs moving, or it’s your faith that crashes, or it’s your job that needs replacing.

Changes can be welcome ones or painful ones, but the thing that’s true of all changes is that they both end something and begin something.

The way things were are not the way things will be from now on.

Changing anything means something is ending.

But it also means a new beginning.

~xo,
LuAnne

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